Fatal

What is pain, but loss of something? You can feel it coming, that sick feeling in your stomach, the aching in your heart, the way the tears uncontrollably run down your cheeks. They are all the warning signs, the ultimate indicators of pain. It's like you feel it in every part of your body, your head pounds, you have the need to walk for days and you can't even think of a smile. Your body throws itself into mutiny at the sight of pain and not only do you feel that loss, you feel it in every part of you, every single cell of your body mimicks the loss. And all you can think about is where do you go from here? How do you possibly move on without that which you have lost. How do you continue doing the things you do every day? I think it's impossible, because somehow every action you take leads to a thought process that ends at him. Every single thought you have somehow connects to his name, the way he did something, something he said, something you did together, a time that you thought about him, or a place that something happened with him. Every single thing I touch, every single move I make, leads back to him. How do you get over lossing something when your body reminds you every step of the way that he isn't there. And that you will never feel his arms again, you will never kiss him again, you will never laugh till your stomach hurts because of him again, you will never smile till your cheeks hurt, you will never get to dream of a future with him, you will never feel his love again. How do you live with that weighing on you. Just please tell me how do you make it stop? I need to know how to make it stop